Lets see, it all began long time ago, I used to always look for the better looking boys to hang out with, I thought it was normal, I mean c'mon who does not like to hang out with the cute boys? I never question myself why, I always saw it as something normal. Time passed by I was around eleven or twelve when my classmates and friends started talking about girls. All day long the only thing they would talk about was girls, how they wanted to do stuff to them, how pretty girls looked, how attracted they were towards them. That's when I started to feel alienated, I started to feel different to my boy friends.
Somehow I knew I did not feel the same way towards girls, the way they felt, the attraction I felt was not for girls, but for boys. Back then I did not take it as a big deal, I used to think to myself, that I would take care of that as I get older. But as time passed by, my friends started to noticed, that I would not talk about girls, somehow a type of feminine mannerisms started to bloom in me, which I did not mind. Until they really started to bully me about been gay, when not even I knew what I was. Classmates, friends even family members would make stupid comments about me been gay, they would say it with such a hate in their voice that I would get scare of just hearing them.
The bullying kept getting worse and worse, from calling me names, to taking away my clothing. I wondered myself if any of them were actually gay for doing that. Friends of a lifetime started to bully me as well, which was one of the saddest parts. Little by little the whole world started to look dark and without hope for someone like me.
But trust me, it does get better.
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